GRIEF.

Now before we begin this blog is strictly about how I feel on the topic of grief, if you disagree then so be it. To begin when my dad first passed I never knew about grieving being that this was my first major lost, I just thought I was supposed to up and move on with life but when I tried that it didn’t seem to work. Over the past years I’ve revisited those bottles up emotions I had and finally began grieving. Honestly speaking everyone grieves differently so how you see one person handle it may not be how you would handle it. Personally for me revisiting those feelings was a way for me to be even stronger and be more open on his death and certain other topics. Before I got to this level of grieving I had to learn how to be okay with the way I felt about any situation, also learning how to take accountability for my actions by all means necessary (trust me this may not seem like it is helpful but it is), and finally finding ways to express myself. Being okay with the way situations are doesn't just come easily you have to have patience and have the mindset that life is just life. This has helped me so much in my grieving process because I don't force myself to be a certain way everyday. Sometimes anxiety takes over and I have to distance myself and regroup and those closest to me understand that. And honestly speaking that is okay, you don't owe anyone anything, if you need space, take it. Moving on to accountability, knowing how to admit you are wrong in certain circumstances will help you out tremendously. Why you may ask... well it'll help you be honest about your feelings and not devalidating what and how you feel. This also leads into finding ways to express yourself, personally I wouldn't walk up to a group of people and start talking about my fathers death. Honestly speaking that is a bit weird, but once I discovered poetry I began feeling happier because i'm a damn good writer and I can use that to my better advantage to pull emotions out of people to have them feel even a glimpse of how I feel. There are barely any rules when it comes to writing poetry, blogs, and or diary entries so you are like a free bird, you have the opportunity to write however and whatever you please.
For those who are grieving just know you have support and don't ever feel like you are alone. My advice would be to find a new hobby. (Yoga, Meditating, Writing{Journaling;Poetry;Short Stories;Anonymous Writing Online;Diary Entries;Etc.}, Drawing, Painting, Etc.) Simple things to ease your mind off of the pain.